Don't let life tear you down.

I obviously realize that this isn't book related but I really just have stuff that I need to let go of. So today In English we were talking about the novel "I know why the caged bird sings." And how the main characters life wouldn't have been the way it was if it hadn't have been for the hard things she had to over come and it just reminds me of myself. 

       Last year I went through a lot of hard things. One of my best friends replaced me, I started getting in fights with my family a lot, my sister graduated so I was the only kid left (cuz I'm the youngest), and I started having melt downs every single day. I wasn't happy with myself and felt so alone constantly. I also had people tell me that I was too negative and that I needed to be more happy. All I could think was "how am I supposed to be so happy when I have a life like this?" Finally it got to the point where school was about to start again and I realized I spent my whole entire summer being depressed and feeling like crap. I finally decided that I should just be the person that people actually wanted me to be, so that's what I did. When I was pissed I wouldn't tell anyone for fear that they would say I was being negative. I kept every feeling in and I mostly still am. Sure in the inside of my self I'm in endless pain but there is no point in telling people since its just "too negative". The point is though is that the things that happen in our life shape who we are. I wouldn't be this person that I am now if it wasn't for all the pain this past summer had caused me. In some ways I feel stronger but also I feel fake by pretending that certain things don't anger me. Honestly if you asked me if I was the same person now that I was last year I would defiantly say no. Just know that life will never be easy. But the more and more you live it, the stronger you become.